I can see blue sky! And not only blue sky but a blazingly large sun that is making me forget about all that rain. It is nice to actually feel like I am in Brazil once again.
On the other hand, what I am doing is really hard for me. It is hard talking to a 2o year old (MY AGE) with three kids from 2 to 5 and realize that she has no hopes for her own future and seems to have very little for the future of her kids. She left a rural area to move to Porto Seguro in hopes of improving life at least somewhat (and escaping the father of her kids.) She works taking care of other people's houses and kids while her own either take care of each other or stay at the house of a neighbor. She is scared her daughters will end up like her and her son will end up like her father but she has no idea how to break that cycle. It was so hard to talk to her because it feels so unfair. Here I am, STUDYING (something she hasn't done for ten years) in her country while she struggles to live. I am trying to figure out what I want to do with my life and she has resigned herself to the fact that what she is living now IS her life. It is so hard not to be able to do anything.
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